In two specific situations I realized the outcome was different. My therapist asked me what the difference was. Here was my short journey with parts to communicate a trauma experience. Self-criticism is quick to respond with, "because I was an idiot in both situations, but I was a bigger idiot the first time." Self-criticism gave … Continue reading An Ah Ha Moment
Author: becksnelson
Getting Comfortable with Discomfort
Willow. Tit Willow. Tit Willow. It's a bit of an inside joke that every time I think of dipping my toe into a difficult situation or feeling a difficult emotion, this Muppets song comes to mind. The willow tit is a European bird that looks like an American chickadee. The bird that originally illustrated the … Continue reading Getting Comfortable with Discomfort
It’s Only April
Photo by Zachary DeBottis on Pexels.com I had entered the twilight stage. I wasn't asleep, but I wasn't awake; I was in a dreamlike state, and my mind was creating a story that I now know wasn't true but felt very real at the time. Actually, I don't know that I remember what this "dream" … Continue reading It’s Only April
Let Me Disappoint You
I don't like to admit when I am struggling. Not anymore. I am afraid of disappointing people who have seen me do so well. And I hate when people remind me I shouldn't be in this place because I'm different from how I was several years ago. More capable. Healthier. It isn't that people shouldn't … Continue reading Let Me Disappoint You
Mindfulness and Feedback Loops
I adopted the practice of mindfulness meditation several years ago when I needed a way to transform the battle of pain, stress, and turmoil into a simple awareness that comes and goes (I’m still a work in progress). The key to mindfulness meditation is “simply” allowing the experiences we encounter without judgment, which is also … Continue reading Mindfulness and Feedback Loops
Four: Contributions
I’m very behind in my writing prompts for the year, but I am doing better than last year. I first downloaded these prompts last year and never started. The reasons for not starting were plentiful, but what sticks out to me is the belief that I don’t have much to offer by way of understanding … Continue reading Four: Contributions
Three: Something is Missing
When I think about the last 42 years of my life, I don’t see myself as anything but ordinary. There is nothing special about me or anything I have ever done. As a child, I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I never questioned my dream to help troubled individuals grow, heal, … Continue reading Three: Something is Missing
Short: Thoughts on Beauty
There seems to be a longing inside most of us that seeks out the beauty of nature. We go to the woods for the peace and quiet. We go to the woods for what is natural, serene, and untouched by people and industry. This longing, at least for me, stems from the business of life … Continue reading Short: Thoughts on Beauty
Be and Become
I have been spending time thinking, asking questions, listening to friends, listening to podcasts, and reading to get to the point of declaring my intention for this year. Prior to 2019, I had never considered making an intention, but I also hadn't planned on living to see 2019. I had spent the better part of … Continue reading Be and Become
Two: Work
One thing I don't talk much about is work. Yet, I am writing through a year of prompts, and work is what came up. So, I'm going to discuss some jobs I have had, failures, successes, lessons, thoughts, directions, values, and intents. Speaking of intentions, I promise I will post about my main intention for … Continue reading Two: Work
Burn the Boat! 