Photo by Zachary DeBottis on Pexels.com I had entered the twilight stage. I wasn't asleep, but I wasn't awake; I was in a dreamlike state, and my mind was creating a story that I now know wasn't true but felt very real at the time. Actually, I don't know that I remember what this "dream" … Continue reading It’s Only April
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Let Me Disappoint You
I don't like to admit when I am struggling. Not anymore. I am afraid of disappointing people who have seen me do so well. And I hate when people remind me I shouldn't be in this place because I'm different from how I was several years ago. More capable. Healthier. It isn't that people shouldn't … Continue reading Let Me Disappoint You
Mindfulness and Feedback Loops
I adopted the practice of mindfulness meditation several years ago when I needed a way to transform the battle of pain, stress, and turmoil into a simple awareness that comes and goes (I’m still a work in progress). The key to mindfulness meditation is “simply” allowing the experiences we encounter without judgment, which is also … Continue reading Mindfulness and Feedback Loops
Four: Contributions
I’m very behind in my writing prompts for the year, but I am doing better than last year. I first downloaded these prompts last year and never started. The reasons for not starting were plentiful, but what sticks out to me is the belief that I don’t have much to offer by way of understanding … Continue reading Four: Contributions
Three: Something is Missing
When I think about the last 42 years of my life, I don’t see myself as anything but ordinary. There is nothing special about me or anything I have ever done. As a child, I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I never questioned my dream to help troubled individuals grow, heal, … Continue reading Three: Something is Missing
Short: Thoughts on Beauty
There seems to be a longing inside most of us that seeks out the beauty of nature. We go to the woods for the peace and quiet. We go to the woods for what is natural, serene, and untouched by people and industry. This longing, at least for me, stems from the business of life … Continue reading Short: Thoughts on Beauty
Be and Become
I have been spending time thinking, asking questions, listening to friends, listening to podcasts, and reading to get to the point of declaring my intention for this year. Prior to 2019, I had never considered making an intention, but I also hadn't planned on living to see 2019. I had spent the better part of … Continue reading Be and Become
Two: Work
One thing I don't talk much about is work. Yet, I am writing through a year of prompts, and work is what came up. So, I'm going to discuss some jobs I have had, failures, successes, lessons, thoughts, directions, values, and intents. Speaking of intentions, I promise I will post about my main intention for … Continue reading Two: Work
World’s End
First and foremost, you should know that this comes with a trigger warning. You will read this and feel things you DO NOT want to feel. You will read this and think things you DO NOT want to think. If you are ready for that on a personal and/or protective level, then please read. If … Continue reading World’s End
Three > Thirty
Three (3) years. Thirty-six (36) months. One hundred fifty-six (156) weeks. One thousand ninety-five (1,095) days. Twenty-six thousand two hundred ninety-eight (26,289) hours. One million five hundred seventy-six thousand eight hundred (1,576,800) minutes. Ninety-four million six hundred eight thousand (94,608,000) seconds. This is how long it has been since I have self-harmed. Three years out … Continue reading Three > Thirty
Burn the Boat! 