Two things about this blog post: One...it comes with a trigger warning, including self-harm talk and some information that may be triggering for people with sexual trauma. Two...I was a little all over the place writing this. Stick with it for me; it was information I was excited to share, to maybe provide a little … Continue reading Pain, Pleasure, and Massage: A Practice in Meditation and Dual Awareness
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Rupture and Repair…Again
In truth, I wrote this at the beginning of March, but I did not actually post it until a month later. So, when I talk about specific days, know that you are reading a month behind! I have been reading a lot and taking an intensive class to become a Certified Personal Trainer. It is … Continue reading Rupture and Repair…Again
It Hurts, But It’s Still Possible
In a recent social media post, I wrote this: In high school, while running cross country, I knew about 'mental toughness.' I'm realizing as I get older that I am somehow losing that. So, the other day I was attempting dumbbell floor press to failure and kept thinking 'it hurts, but it's still possible.' Today, … Continue reading It Hurts, But It’s Still Possible
Here’s A Secret For You
This comes with a trigger warning. In here, I hint at self-harm/suicide, and I discuss sex, sex therapy, and sexual trauma. I have been withholding information. The reason? I'm not sure. A good portion is shame, but that isn't it. It could be that I am still trying to figure out if this is my … Continue reading Here’s A Secret For You
She Isn’t Me
All of my blog posts are vulnerable, but this one feels even moreso. You see, I have been writing, but I had no intention of continuing my blog. I was really hurting, and I didn't want anyone to see that any more than was necessary (because that feels weak), and I didn't want anyone to … Continue reading She Isn’t Me
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I grew up in an evangelical Christian home. Although Catholics tend to be the primary ones who adhere to the idea of giving something up for Lent, my family also chose to follow this tradition. Every year, for the 40 days leading up to Easter, each member of my family would give something up. Honestly, … Continue reading Cookies
Burn the Boat! 