This comes with a trigger warning. In here, I hint at self-harm/suicide, and I discuss sex, sex therapy, and sexual trauma. I have been withholding information. The reason? I'm not sure. A good portion is shame, but that isn't it. It could be that I am still trying to figure out if this is my … Continue reading Here’s A Secret For You
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She Isn’t Me
All of my blog posts are vulnerable, but this one feels even moreso. You see, I have been writing, but I had no intention of continuing my blog. I was really hurting, and I didn't want anyone to see that any more than was necessary (because that feels weak), and I didn't want anyone to … Continue reading She Isn’t Me
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I grew up in an evangelical Christian home. Although Catholics tend to be the primary ones who adhere to the idea of giving something up for Lent, my family also chose to follow this tradition. Every year, for the 40 days leading up to Easter, each member of my family would give something up. Honestly, … Continue reading Cookies
Dear Becks (Part 5)
This is probably the hardest letter to write, which makes sense why it's the last and almost didn't make the cut. It's not that I don't want to say a lot - or that I don't have A LOT ot say. It's that I don't know how to say it without sounding like I'm falling … Continue reading Dear Becks (Part 5)
But I’m Proud of Myself
I woke up in a cold sweat. My heart wasn't pounding as it normally does when I have a nightmare. No, it was actually quite slow, and my breathing was shallow. This happens sometimes, usually when I am frozen in my dream. This wasn't directly a trauma dream that I was frozen in though. I … Continue reading But I’m Proud of Myself
Four: Contributions
I’m very behind in my writing prompts for the year, but I am doing better than last year. I first downloaded these prompts last year and never started. The reasons for not starting were plentiful, but what sticks out to me is the belief that I don’t have much to offer by way of understanding … Continue reading Four: Contributions
Burn the Boat! 